drawingblood

notes:

• Disclaimer That I made it the fuck up
• mina, who can’t see her reflection ever since turning, has developed a subconscious sort of emptiness over not being able to see herself… ofc mina is vain and she probably had a habit of checking out her reflection so every time she looks into a mirror now it’s just a stark reminder of her loss of humanity and how she can never go back
• i think violet drawing mina earnestly, with such a soft, vulnerable expression, means a lot more to her than she can let on or even really understand herself
• smth abt her being seen for how she is Right Now, with one foot in the human and the other in the vampire world, and not for who she Was (an ambitious upstart human girl) -> and who she Failed to Be (a powerful fairfax) -> and who she Became Now (a failure of a vampire)
• i headcanon that mina got pointed ears after her vampire transformation and she’s self-conscious of them now so that’s why her hair always obscures them. so the depiction of her w human ears makes her feel wistful and nostalgic… that she can still be seen as human, maybe, to someone out there, at least.
• and the idea of being studied closely probably flatters her
• violet’s ofc never seen her ears (and i think it’d be silly if she just was oblivious to the fact that mina is a vampire LOL)
• and it’s important to mina that she keeps This doodle, even if violet insists it’s Bad, because it’s important that it’s candid, that it was done out of pure “i just wanted to.” no strings attached. i think mina def sees relationships/friendships/anything as very transactional, so someone doing something this sentimental for her (though unknowingly) does mean a lot to her. it’d just be different if she had Asked violet to draw her….
• and i think mina’s def sat for portraits before, as a human (she wld probably find them tedious and boring but always like the outcome) but now that violet raises this idea, mina would sit for 10 million portraits any day, just so she can grasp the idea of seeing her own reflection again
• also mina is stepping on the sketch of pocket because Lol