抱きしめられるか？という妄想絵2枚。少なくともNに接するよりは素直に抱きしめられそう。ゲーチスがNに辛く当たるのはNに対して自分より優れたものになるんじゃないかという恐ろしさ（自分と取って変わられるんじゃないか的な恐れ）を感じているからじゃないかと思ってるので。

【ゲーチスの過去像について】ゲーチスも昔はNと同じように孤児であり、生きるため自分の居場所を得るためにどんな事でもしてきて、その際に人の心の機微を察する力を身に付けたけれど、歪んだ人格になってしまったというのが私の中のゲーチス像です。

Two “what if” drawings imagining whether he could hug his past self. At the very least, it seems like he could hug that self more honestly than he could when dealing with N.
I think the reason Ghetsis treats N so harshly is because he fears that N might become someone superior to him—like N might replace him. That kind of fear terrifies him.

[About my interpretation of Ghetsis’s past]
In my view, Ghetsis was also an orphan in the past, just like N. In order to survive and secure a place where he belonged, he did whatever it took. During that time, he developed the ability to read the subtleties of people’s emotions—but his personality ended up becoming twisted as a result. That’s the image of Ghetsis I have in my mind.